A post I made last night I’m really glad I expressed:
I usually don’t make posts like this but it’s a special day for me and I figured I’d share what I’m feeling about this day with anyone interested in reading some uplifting words. A year ago today I heard one of the most life changing and painful news in my life and that was that my mother discovered that I’ve always identified as a homosexual. We both faced much adversity and our relationship took a quick turn after that moment. She didn’t understand it, she had a much different upbringing than I was blessed to have had. These things can take lots of time, patience and most importantly self-love. I don’t want to write this making my mom sound hurtful, she really isn’t. She was just scared of something she didn’t know about. We just live in impulse, not with an intention to hurt others. She’s actually the best mother in the world, with compassion so unbelievable and strength that I could only dream of having. Her love for her kids and the sacrifices she’s made without hesitating, shape me to be this person I am. I lost sight of all that when we disputed over months. We spent months apart and not speaking and I was frightened that, that was how the rest of our relationship would be. I quickly spiraled down and became paralyzed from all the conflicts and the painful memories from growing up as a ‘closeted’ person. Not loving myself and hiding who I am. I convinced myself I wasn’t worth anything and that no one could ever love me anymore since I told myself she didn’t love me anymore. But I’m also the luckiest guy in New York City and have the most supportive friends a person can have in one lifetime. Both home in New Jersey and here in Brooklyn. Whether I vocalize it enough or not, you know who you are and thank you so much. Thank you for being compassionate, patient, loving and thank you for saving me. I’ve learned such a great deal about myself that this past year was absolutely a great one. Even with everything I got myself into and all the hurt we’ve faced, it wouldn’t make me who I am now a year later without it. Now I’ve finally accepted who I am and now my mother and I are whole again! It’s a process we’re going through but the love we share triumphs all. She’s always loved me and I’d be lucky to be anywhere near as great a parent as she is. I’m looking forward to seeing how the rest of our time together goes by. Thank you for reading!
This Friday 6pm, come to Dossier Outpost ( Pier 17, South Street Seaport) and check out the closing reception to our group show CONNATURAL !!
Your 5th Apt., 2014
Just like that, 2014
Will and Us